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Hi Sandra, Like you I have suffered with depression from the age of 16, I am now 41. I was suicidal at 20 and again at 37, inbetween times I deal with my depression as just accepting its part of who I am, I have good days and bad days, sometimes I accept that I have to fall right down to that pit and hit the bottom before I know I can come back up and start feeling better. I try not to take medication if I can as I think for me it makes things worse. I came off Citalopram after 2 years, about 2 years ago and the withdrawal was terrible, so I would advise coming off really slowly. I like you have paranoid feelings and question my relationship which is wonderful and we have been together for 18 years, he is really supportive, it still doesnt stop me feeling like ending it all though sometimes. What stops me is imagining my husband having to explain to my children what I have done. Also my grandad commited suicide when my dad was 15 and I have seen what that did to him. Please have faith that the good days will outnumber the bad. I find having to get up for work, even if I dont want to, helps to keep me going, even though I might be crying on the bus on the way in and the bus on the way home, I manage to keep it together whilst Im there! I hope you start to feel better soon. My doctor has just put me forward for Cognitive Behavioural therapy, so if you not had this, give it a try. Best wishes. xx

karen

Hi Ladies,
I have a son on this medication. He has been on this medicine for about a year. We tried this after trying several other medications. He is so extremely tired all the time. Do you ladies feel tired all the time?
At 13 years of age he sounds like a younger version of both of you. He has been suicidal and at times is very negative about his friends and that other people do not like him.
Any suggestions would be appreciated.
Linda

Linda

Hi everyone,
I've been taking Citrolapram for 8 months now and all though this enitially helped with the contant crying, I do feel suicidal at times. Plus all of the things the other ladies mentioned, relationships etc. When things change constanting in my life. I seem to feel like I've reached the top of the hill, when everythings going great and then something kicks you back down again. Any form of emotional attachment to friends seems to frighten the living daylights of them, when all we need is the support from them, and a smile or hug to say we're here for you whenever you need us. But at the same time, not really understanding wha'ts going on, and the stupid behaviour that comes with it, saying stupid things that really is not what you mean at all. Upsetting the people around you, when you don't mean to. Whether thats just me or a trate of depression. The best thing is I'm the kind of person whom likes to think I don't care about anything and probably the people around me would never think I'm depressed. The life and sole, make people laugh, the silly one on a night out. I have learned one thing over the passed few weeks is that I took things for granted, my friends for one, to which I apologise. I am now trying my best to beat this. I have started at a gym, I try to see my friends as often and I can, being that I live a distant away. I listen to my music loads more now and I sing to lift my spirits,something thats always been part of me but rarely do.
Just to answer Linda's question is that when I was given citrolapram the doctor says to take my dosage in the evening, and friend of mine is also taking this she was the same until she switched to the evening.

Mandy

I took citrolopram for one year, it did seem to help lift my mood and I was able to be more sociable and less inhibited. Before taking the drug I was often tearful and felt overwhelmed finding it difficult to be with people even friends and relatives, I frequently had thoughts of suicide. Although citrolopram did help with some of these symptoms I did not like the feeling that my mood was being controlled by a drug. I felt calm and detached. While I was taking the drug I started shoplifting for the first time in my life. I stopped taking citroloplam two years ago and find it hard to believe that I was capable of taking such risks. Although I still suffer with depression I would not try a chemical cure again. I am experimenting with alternative therapies such as meditation, nutrition, art, dance and excersise. It helps to know that I'm not alone

maggie

I have been on Citrolopram for 6 months. I cannot believe how similar I felt to you Maggie. I am not pleased to be using chemicals but I had to do something. I felt lost, alone, couldn't stop crying, panic attacks and thought about self harm. I am slowly beginning to come off them, although I am scared incase I cannot cope. At the moment I feel as if I can just about face life, I have a few wobbles but the fall to the bottom in not as far. What happens if I start crying again? What happens if I cannot face life without the support of the emotion freezing happy pill? I like the distance it gives but I don't like the tiredness and loss of memory. Good luck to all x

I have had depression for 14 months but only got put on to Citalopram 7 weeks ago and I doesn't really make me feel different, I feel emotionless and detached on or off it :(

I've been on citrolipram for over 2 years now, ki dont think I could ever come off them and panick of running out scares me. I probably have one or two down days a month were I cant get out of bed. I find im always tiered I dont know if this is an effect? I sometimes feel suicidal but not very often. I wish my friends and family understood how I feel.

Hi Everyone, I have been on this drug for just two months. Although I initially questioned its beneficial effect, it is very early days& looking back to how I was 3 months ago I feel I am beginning to make improvements. Panic attacks are fewer & I am starting to have more 'good' days. Most of all I am beginning to come to terms with 'my illness' and at least recognising it's not my fault! The worst aspects of all this for me has been - shame, embarrassment, guilt, stupidity & frustration but visits to my councellor has just begun to erradicate some of these feelings not the drugs. Dont see the anti depressants as an instant magical cure, as I first thought, I am convinced they just 'level you out' a little & balance a few chemicals in your brain. I have been lucky with a supportive partner & family but now its starting to get difficult as they see you improve they then expect a little too much too soon.... Good luck everyone & hop to see you on the bright side of the street soon! ..... Love & Peace Dale.

i have been taking citrolpram for about six weeks now and have only just started to feel different, I feel very calm and not emotional at all, when a few weeks ago I was a wreck, thinking everybody was against me, very moody and hated the world, I have read some of the above cases and I do understand that at some point I will have to come of these drugs and the thought scares me, will I go back to what I was before??

rachel

I have been taking citrolopram 10mg for 2 years now , befor I felt tired all the time and fed up with life , family ,friends everything , I also had 2 or 3 panic attacks, I seem to feel now happy nearly every day and I thank god for that as I thought I was going crazy at the time. Im 52 also just started in the menopause and had given up smoking also at 50 I have put a lot of wieght on but im so pleased I feel better it makes everything so easy when you feel well , as to coming off them I think I shall take them as long as I live as I never want to feel like I did 2 years ago. so anyone who is starting taking citrolopram I have to say it takes time for your body to get used to them but u feel much better afterwards keep your chins up !!!!!! lottie xx

Hi everyone , well Ive been taking citrolpramfor about 18 months now and I feel much better than what I did befor although some days I feel tired, but I do not feel sad and wanting to cry all the time like I did befor , I feelthey have helped me a lot , I sometimes think of coming off them bit by bit but then I remember how I felt befor and I get a bit frightened so maybe I'll keep on with them a while longer untill I feel strong enough to come off them !!

lorraine

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