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Case Study 814
I woke up today exhausted with fighting with depression..and think im finally ready to admit I am..im ashamed..i dont know why..
Since I had my 1st son nearly 7 yrs ago I have felt on and off the blackness and hopelessness of depression, bt have never been able to admit to myself that is wat it was..i have been in many battles that have won, slowly..bt I cant do it anymore..it has sucked me up..i hate myself, I try not to, bt it like im fighting all the time not to..everybody lvs me bt I have no idea y and dont believe them anyway..i think ppl r out to get me, hurt me..,im wracked with guilt about everything and anything.
After my 2nd son was born about 5 wks after the birth I felt strange obssessional thoughts driving through me..really random stuff..and fell into the black hole big time..my health vistitor picked up on it and was great..i slowly recovered.Ive always loved my babies and they got me through it all.
Ive gained 2 stone in weight from comfort eatin in the past, and have lost a stone recently when I was feeling ok about life.
It hits me randomly, one day ill b ok..the nxt I cant do a thing and stare at the ceiling over thinking about everything.I have self harmed a few times I feels good..ashamed as I am to say that nobody no's any of this as I am a great actor..i act out my life im a good mum,wife, friend,daughter,sister,but deep within me theres a hurt that never goes away., I cant stand the thought of tellin any1, epes a doctor..bt I will, I have 2, lifes to short to live it in the dark!
holly
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