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Creative Work 67
I wake up in my hard queen sized bed
lay there feeling tired and dead
wen the pain and sorrow comes flooding to my head
Suddenly it up in bed and remember
that you gone now and its mid september
and gone are all the good times we had together
tears come down my face with out warning
my heart trobs with endless mourning
and I once again mourn my death like every morning
Craw out of the heavey cover
wonder what today I will discover
besides the pain of an old lover
Walk to the bus with a look of worry
sit down beside an old lady with a face of furry
my whole world is so blurry
step off the bus and almost faint
my face looks white and taint
im so scared of their invisible restraint
Walk into school, heart racing
clutch the wall, bracing
scared of the pain I am about to be facing
passed him in the hall
hoping he wont notice me at all
but he stares me down and I feel so small
i hear wispers of "slut" and "cronic" all round
from a thousand selfish eyes just found
i cant even sit down with out being confound
all day im on edge with fear
fear from the ones I used to hold dear
and all I see is others in happiness and cheer
Come home, back to the door and cry
and I ask God why, why?
Why every day I come home and want to die?
Why cant they see im the same as I was before
i ask as I crumble to the floor
and I ask this once more
See this is my life what I do every day
even though it is dark and grey
I know I've deserved it, and now have to pay
I go to bed and try to sleep
but cant, and start to weep
i never knew sadness could go this deep
i lay and wonder how I can do this anymore
living is just a huge chore
a horrifying war
Wonder if I should end this
just end this thing that is aimless
then maybe I would have some bliss
Mabee I should just go for it
just do it now, get hit
i take the knife and make a slit...
Maybee they'll be happy now
im gone and out of the way, some how
some how.
Life Everyday
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